BluFfin' MuFFin'

Monday

I Give My First Love to You

Last Wednesday, after all those fuckin’ assignments and test finished, I finally get myself a little break.

This movie is about Takuma, a boy who is told he will die before he’s 20, and Mayu, a girl who is in love with him… The story begins when they are little kids. Mayu, whose father is a doctor, meets Takuma, who is hospitalized in her father’s workplace. They develop feelings for each other, but Mayu learns of Takuma’s grave illness and that he will die before he turns 20. They both make one promise for an uncertain future. Time passes, and the girl becomes a young woman, and the boy, a young man.

Mayu continues to support and love Takuma. On the other hand, Takuma, who knows his days are numbered, pushes away his feelings for Mayu and distances himself from her. He cannot stand to see her cry or hurt her more than he already has. Then Mayu meets another man who has feelings for her, and Takuma meets a woman who has the same illness, and their feelings for each other begin to waver.

For the rest of this story? Watch it yourself peeps. But this movie is not a typically love story that always have the happy ending end.

Mayu quotes:

Takuma,

Living is just so sad
it’s filled with such heartbreak’s like this
but...

Takuma,

you know I don’t regret a thing that I meet you
That I felt in love with you
If I were to meet you again
Even knowing such sadness awaits me
I’d definitely
Fall in love with you again..

Not So Sweet Break.

As usual study leave week. Students always take for granted including me. After half year struggle it finally reached to the end. Wow! I manage to get through this semester even it’s rough at the beginning. As usual I went back to my home with the intention to chill and have fun but unfortunately it turns out to be no so sweet break because I had to help Ery with his unfinished ETR assignments, buying some materials for his new design cocktail dress? And work as a free-of charge driver for my mom.

xoxo Sweet isn't it xoxo

Tuesday

Dear Heart

Monday 1.25 A.M

I don't know this feeling. Being such a jerk. urgh!

They often called me fat or huge. Sometime I'm just let it passed my brain but sometimes they don't make it. They stuck in it.

It make me sick knowing that my body grew bigger every single day.

I never in this million years want it to be like this but i just can't.

My body just don't know how to resists the intrigue smell of food, the more i tried to resists the more i wanted to taste it.

Damn!

I wish i could stop this. I just tired with the tease and smirk around me,

I just want to feel what i had felt before and wearing anything without letting doubt to take control.

I really want to change this,

Now and Forever

and i know if i never start to starve myself i gonna regret it forever.

Sunday

Missin' them

"Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will."

Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone will always leaves. Then we would have to say goodbye and I hate goodbyes. I just need more hellos.

Guys really miss all of you~

Eid 2010

I guess it's too late to make an entry for this eid but i just make it anyway.
For me this eid just like a normal eid like before neither happening nor not.

On the first of Syawal my family went to my grandmother grave at Kg Jeram and headed to Sg Besar after that.
Its one hour and a half journey from my home to Sg Besar.
We just visited my mom and dad friends and relatives house. Even it seems boring, i really enjoyed that moment because eid is only once in a year rite?

Sg Besar View

Aww! Cutie~

kiddo~

On the forth of Syawal i started my move to my friends house. Because of too many house that we had to go, Im still go to their house even today. tired rite? But Freakin' AWESOME!!