Dear MidNitE

Its midnight and 
my eyes just staring at the wall opposite 
no sleep, no dreams, i sit and 
watch the drama unfolding before me

Like an empty canvas waiting for an artist
i wait in anticipation wondering
when and wondering why
I did all i could, so i believe so, 
what is happening is beyond my grasp and
i can only watch as a mere spectator
 
A mere spectator in my own life 
one moment its all the way up, 
the next its hanging in balance, 
the tension is nerve wracking

Patience is all i have and 
patience is all that i need as i watch the things unfold 
and let things take shape at its own pace
i waited a long time for this, 
so what difference it is going to make to wait a little bit more 
but for how long should i be the villain in my own life
i wish i could answer all the questions running in my mind,
i wish i could end all the battles being fought inside, 
i wish i do not have to wait for long i wish,
i hope and i believe (maybe) tomorrow will be better than today